This is gonna be a long one, and the first part might not seem entirely uplifting to read, but I’m going to try and write anyway, and hopefully there’ll be some ‘wholesome’ optimism sprinkled in in intervals!
I’m not entirely free, but today is a pretty free day for me. I’m off work, home alone, and I can’t leave the house because I’m waiting for 2 deliveries and the food delivery.
I also had a 2nd interview with a company yesterday for a full time, mon-fri office job. I yearn for it, not because I want to work in an office doing officey things… but because – I don’t know if this is a thing – but it’s been enough years after university that now most of my friends have escaped shift work and seem to be settling into places, working mon-fri jobs and doing stuff on the weekends. So with me, working shifts and having tues-thurs off, I can’t do anything with my friends without using up holiday. My parents also want to visit on weekends ideally.
In Jan 2017 I had to quit what was for a good amount of time my dream job. This is because they stopped paying us on time and didn’t really give us indications of when they would pay. I couldn’t really afford to live like that, and my art coworkers had also already left, so I felt like I also wouldn’t be learning as much as I could.
I took a leap going back into hospitality with a poorly paid, 6 day a week yet somehow ~16 hour a week cafe job. It was a very busy job, but it did help me to survive a bit longer on a very low budget. I managed in June 2017 to get 30 hours a week at the local supermarket, which was a less stressful job. Until they started losing staff on our team and not replacing them! But it sufficed.
I tried to work on my art while applying to a range of local and non-local jobs. With local jobs, despite being qualified for all I applied to, I only got one interview and wasn’t successful. I should’ve asked for feedback but I forgot! I could have been unsuccessful in all my applications from having a bad CV or cover letter, who knows?
In the non-local jobs, I got an interview in Manchester but that day the trains broke from the heavy snow and I couldn’t attend. I had a skype interview but I couldn’t hear the man’s questions because he wasn’t wearing headphones so there was a ton of feedback. I didn’t get the job.
Anyway, now I’ve moved to Manchester this April 2018 and I have been applying to some jobs. I had an interview with a company for an admin-ish job using some language. They said I was unsuccessful/unsuitable but kindly allowed me to have a second interview, which I had yesterday. I’m now sitting at home, unable to go do stuff outside, trying not to worry about whether or not I will get this job. I’m really hoping for some good news job-wise after having almost a year and a half (not including the time at my old job where I had no money) of not so great experiences.
If I don’t get this, I will definitely ask for feedback. I will also try and make sure my CV is improved for next time. If I don’t get this, I will go to the other interview I have booked on Friday for another admin job – it’s going to be difficult getting there as there isn’t really much public transport though. If I don’t get this, I will find and apply for more jobs. If I’m still at the supermarket in June I will use my modest yet definitely appreciated June bonus to treat myself and C somehow.
I’m going to try and appreciate my current part time life.
- I have more time off to work on art
- I have more time off to be able to cook meals
- I can keep up with my Japanese study fairly well
- I get a discount at the supermarket
- I can go into town tues-thurs when banks and post offices are open
- I can still mostly afford to live
- I can look back at my time working regular hours and appreciate them, something I took for granted after experiencing it for 1.5 years
- I can spend time writing meditative posts like this one
- I remember how to live frugally and work from a budget
I can use days like today, where I’m stuck indoors, to work on things I’ve been putting off for ages. Things like:
Finally putting together the painting process video that’s just been sitting in my computer unfinished
- Finishing incomplete paintings
Finishing knitting projects (like the hat for my sister that just needs decreases)
- Finishing up spinning
Catching up with podcasts
- Listening to e-books –
finishing up Vulcan’s Hammer
- Organising my life and my computer files
Making the video for my Japanese teacher that she really needs for her presentation (I have been putting this off for ages!)
Reading some news in Japanese
- Winding yarn into balls (gasp – maybe I can get a ball winder and swift with my bonus?!)
- Maybe finally updating my art social media with a better background and profile picture (haha… I’ve been putting this off forever)
- Rewriting my holiday forms for work